i just
wanna lay down
confess my deception
admit that i am
a hopeless failure
i just wanna lay down
give in
wash up on the shore
bloated and blue
on the outside
just like i feel
on the inside
i just wanna lay down
rest
stop trying
stop pretending to be
viable
i can’t do it
i can’t make it
i just can’t figure it out.
and yet
the days
just keep clicking by
with magical moments in them
that make me think maybe
the failure i feel
is a lie
but now
when i just
wanna lay down
i think failure
is what is true
except
i have nowhere to go.
i might as well
pick myself back up
and succeed.