Love & Fear
I breathe in
I breath out
I close my eyes -you're not there
When I open them
Beside me is someone else
No questions
But no answers
Just there...
I breathe in
I feel you
I breathe out
I hear you
Your breath against my neck
Goosebumps everywhere
Passion that's inside me
Just there...
I close my eyes
Still nothing
Eyes open once again
Standing there is someone else
Who's been made to take your place
Unsatisfied...
I breathe in
I love him
I breathe out
You complete me
From the river in your voice
To the ridges in your hands
That held me, that stopped me from leaving
Just there...
I breathe out
Awakened by sunlight
Flickering warmth of your hands
Yellowed fabric blinds
Sometimes I taste you
Sometimes I see you
When no one else does
My eyes open to awareness...
Standing steadfast –a darkened silhouette
Huddled in the doorway
I feel you pierce right through me
Reluctantly glancing over he who lies before me
Dreading the opinion of me you presently share
I breathe in
I feel the longing for another
A replica of desire intended only for you
I breathe out
My heart demolished to the point of no repair
I am timid –unwilling to admit I cannot be defeated
Deep within I love again. I feel again.
I breathe in
I breath out
I close my eyes
Beside me is someone else
Words often sought after
No questions
No answers
Just there...
Silence means “I love you”
Within the stillness you’re there
Exhale…
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"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."
~Buddha
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