I May Not Need You
11/15/08 01:49
I may not need you But when you look me in the eye I get that smile on my face That stays with me throughout the day You wrap your arms around me And I never want to let go For fear that feeling will fade away To nothingness
I may not need you To give my life new meaning To run to whenever I'm unsure Or to take care of me Even though the moments I'm beside you Seem frozen; lost in time Hoping never to be found again Until absolutely necessary
I may not need you Sometimes I lose myself and find myself All in that same vulnerability of emotion Not wanting to take away the independence Of our lives yet satisfy the happiness That I feel when I'm with you To carefully avoid the drama My own life used to cause.
I may not need you My desire to be your friend has never been stronger My intentions have never been clearer The respect I have for you Adds meaning to my own life Instilling something within you? There's nothing I want more.
I may not need you I may not have you with me all the time But I can be there for you If ever you need me Your strength is impeccable My emotions are erratic Almost always under control for now I will contain them and lock them up Until I get the chance to see you again
I may not need you To wake up to every day Or complete my daily life But the little things you add to it Are more than just a temporary solution It makes our moments all worthwhile I hope in some way that I can do the same No matter if it's only here and now
I may not need you But I will hold you and hug you when I can I will love you when appropriate And like you when it's not Hopefully I can be someone special to you For as long as you let me As long as you trust me As long as you want me
I will always be your friend.
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"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." ~Buddha
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A Word from the Writer
I wrote this for Monty a few days before he died, I mailed it to him but I don't really know if he ever got it or not... I really hope he did though, I donno I think he did. My way of expressing my opinion on the predicament we found ourselves in between business and intimacy. I also wanted him to know that I wanted to be with him and not use him like his other 2 relationships before me. I didn't want his money, I didn't want him for helping my horse, I just wanted to be with him...he always found that hard to understand; why I'd want to be with him without anything tangible in return.
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