I can't help but look at you and think

You're the greatest man I've ever known

Small soft hands with strength so un-beholding

I can't wait to see you

To smell you

To taste you once more

Be captivated by your body and your soul

Run my fingers through your hair

Feel your breath on my shoulder....

And think of the times in Chicago

With the warmth of the sun and your hand in mine

And the softest bed in the world...and you were mine.

If only I could hold you, stroke you, love you

Run my fingers through your soft curly black hair

And laugh because the strands are uneven

But I know you like it that way...

In my bikini watching you watch me

Running after you every chance I get.

Looking at the passers by

And wondering why

The old couples always seem so happy holding hands

Now why can't you see me?

Can't you even speak to me?

I know you're asleep and that's okay.

If only you knew me and only I knew you

And I could hold my tongue as I watch you get stoned

Not be angered by the alteration in your body chemistry

You feel you need in order to overthrow the government

Control …He wants no control

Neither do I, but I'm not submissive.

Though I do bend in order to accommodate rules in my life.

If only I could see you

If only I could touch you

If only I could run my toes up your legs once more

I miss you.

Why can't I feel you?

My body seems all ragged and torn...

My eyes are burning

I can't feel my legs

The night is almost over and I haven't slept

Because I can feel you

Because I can hold you

But then I exhale and you're not there.

You know I love you

And you know I feel you

You know I'll always be there...

Someday I hope but maybe it won't

Ever be what I want it to be.

I know you love me

And I know that you feel me

But do you want me consistently?

Maybe we'll talk about it

Maybe we won't

But someday I hope

We'll be together

Just wait and see.