Falling Apart

I feel as though my whole world is falling down around me. I’m so depressed and all I do is cry all the time for what seems to be no reason at all. My heart is breaking. I have lost my soul mate forever. What do I do now? I don’t want to live forever by myself. I am so lonely. How could he do this to me? I thought he loved me like I love him. How can someone say they love you and when they get all your money then they just disappear right before your eyes. What is wrong with this world we live in? True love is not supposed to die. That’s how I feel now, like I just want to find a hole and bury myself in it so life will be no more. I never thought I would ever love like this again. Just when I took down the barriers from around my heart and opened the door was I able to find true love again. Love that I thought would be with me forever till eternity. So I ask myself “ what do I do now?” I find myself looking online day and night to see if I can catch him there. I miss him so very much. I want to talk to him, to hear his voice. I want to listen to him laugh again at something silly I might say to him. Please tell me what to do! Why don’t he call me like he used to? He was my lifeline and if I can’t have him then I don’t wish to be living in this life anymore. The End