Right before graduation...December 2008
Here I am...in a crowd when all I really want is to be alone. Do u know what it feels like to have a broken heart,a broken life? I do, everyday I know what it feels like, but I keep pushing anyways. For someone who is supposed to love u to look u in the face and tell u they don't . What is wrong with me I ask? I want to know...I am surrounded by friends whom I know care, but I have not the courage to call them and say...I am hurting. Everything is looking so good for me though, here I am about to graduate college in less than a week...so everything has to be going well for me right? No, I am hurting,my soul is filled with tears,and I have not the strength to cry out!I am so hurt...I keep taking deep breaths and walks every chance I get because it helps me to cope with the pain I carry with me today. I refuse to let anyone else take my life or my love from me...liars and cheaters hold a place in this world and that place is not with me.
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