A year ago.
I walk through the gates
Of the hell hole called school
Heads turn to look at me
And people mutter "freak"
It's lunch time now
And i look over to where
My old friends are sitting and talking
Instead i pull out my journal
And think "this is my life now"
As the day drags on
I get more than just verbal abuse
This makes me feel unwanted, unloved
I wish that they would stop
realize that i am a person too
Now i am home, alone
Thinking and wishing i was gone
And thats when i see it
Gleaming and glittering in the light
I leave a note "I wasn't meant to be"
I dig in deep and fast
The crimson liquid hitting the floor
But then the door does open
And i see my brothers friend
and he sees me
He screams at me, asking why
I don't want to answer i just want to die
he calls and ambulance
I beg him not to
I want him to let me suffer
That was a year ago now
And i have got help
but nothing ever works
I have cut so many other times
Its taken over me completely
And i just can't wait
for it to finally let me go
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