Haunting Me

My head isspinning I don't know what to do

I think I am dieing for I am feeling blue

Can't stand the thoughts running my mind

Get rid ofthem or let them take me in kind

To get past the dreams of forever

To understand the meaning of never

Get past this desperate delusion

Move on with a better vision

Lye down inin my bed for i have made it

Can't go visit the past nor unmake it

How sad it is for me to yearn

Go back to school cause I will never learn

Precog is what i have done

At the end of the race I already know what I have won

Will alwaysbe pushed around

Even till my time when I get pushed underground

Done so many things I will never be proud of

Found thatone I thought would be my true Love

Going to hell I am for what I have done

I am sorry God I cannot be your son

For I know what I have done can never be forgiven

I know for sure If I really did that to him

It haunts me still yet caught I will never be

Leaving did more than cover it up for me

I know I am twisted but I am now under control

Knowing what I have done is taking its toll

Don't know if I can look myself in the mirror

Look into my own eyes and see my own fear

I know someday I will pay for what I have done

I hope the sins of the father are not passed to the son

Haunting me till I close my eyes

Haunting me in my dreams at night

So many things I have done

Now the question is do I end them with this gun?

StarPoet   StarPoet wrote
on 3/27/2009 3:59:42 AM
Coo is right. You have a life to live and love. We all have done things that we are ashamed of. (Read my poem "I Love My Freedom") The trick is to realize we fouled up and to strive to be a better person, doing what we have to do to be the best we can be.

lindsay   lindsay wrote
on 3/26/2009 5:43:03 PM
Very powerful poem!

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