Internal Chaos
..I stopped living for me long ago. Though no one wants me to live for them! I'm sick of wanting what I can't have! Disgusted with who I am! Yet I can't change, won't change Oh, why won't I change? I stand in front of the mirror. I realize, no one will ever 'love' me. Because before me, I behold a monstrosity. This unholy spirit, has me wrapped in chains. Oh, how I need someone to help me. I am not strong enough to break free! This chaos raging inside of me This internal battle I wage, will not cease and just let me be. I am living in a constant state of contradiction! Maybe this emotional torment is my addiction. I seek so many answers, but there seems to be no solution. Am I meant to never find absolution. I've lied and made my share of mistakes. I live with those regrets every single day. It's all because I never learned how to let go. In away it's good, because I'm still here (right?) Yet I know in ways it's not because all I do is continue to suffer! (because I'm a masochist) I guess a man shouldn't asked to be saved. But oh, how I need someone to liberate me! Please someone slay, this demon with in me!

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Trini_belle25   Trini_belle25 wrote
on 4/21/2013 7:37:23 AM
A very well written piece. I especially like, "I am living in a constant state of contradiction! Maybe this emotional torment is my addiction." it reinforces the internal struggle that every individual experiences at one point or another...Thanks for Sharing :)

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