A Confession
I
don’t know what to do!
I
don’t know whether I should be happy or sad?
I
love her more than life itself.
Though
all I truly want is for her to be happy.
My
own brother, my own fucking brother!
I
guess I have to admit that I don’t love him enough to wish him the best.
I
just want what he has, God I want her more than I’ve ever wanted anyone.
That’s
no lie, no stretching of the truth.
I
yearn for the simplest of touches, just the faint catching of her scent!
It’s
obsessive, I know, but I have always been that way!
Could
I hate him for being with her, hate him for my unrequited dream?
Every
part of me finds it completely plausible!
I
don’t want to hide any longer, I want to go in that room and tell her, “I’m in
love with you!”
I’m
just to terrified of losing her, of never seeing that beautiful face again!
I
just want; I just need to cry, but the tears they just won’t come!
I
just have to keep my counterfeit smile, and pretend to happy for them.
I
hope, and I pray that one day I will not feel this way!