Thought Streaming #8 (2011)

The fact that I still want him,

-That I still have feelings for him,

Does not change the fact that I KNOW I must eventually move onto

I think a part of me would like to save him from himself...

From his misery,

And seemingly eternal solitude...

Though he puts on a cheerful face for most of the world,

He IS lonely,

I think he rather would want a partner,

And maybe part of the reason I still have feelings for him;

Is because I can never be sure just WHAT&WHOM he would want for a partner...

70% Of the time I'm pretty sure that's not me...

-I almost think he might be worse than me,

I know I have my quirks,

But it would almost seem like he has suffered similar...

Or maybe even greater injustices than I have...

Either that,

Or he's just more dramatic about things.

I'd like to think that I'm in this with him,

...For the long haul...

Or as long as possible at least.

If he moves, I'd still want to go with him,

Still I'd follow him to the ends of the earth and back.

I want very, very badly to understand him better,

But this must be how I seem to other people...

Always slightly unhappy,

So everyone just tries really hard,

...Just to see a smile on my face...

I keep on thinking to myself,

That he is still very young indeed...

Sometimes I feel older than him,

-But mostly I just think to myself:

"He's 27, he has a good 5 years on me,

So he must know..."

5 Years,

He's a young 27 though...


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Emo, angsty gothic love stories, mostly some kind of poetry. A passion I didn't know I had until I was about 21. Something that I have been doing mostly consistently ever since. My pen name is Belasrose, my online name is Caerid Lock.
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