though I know it doesn't look like it, that is a poem up there, to my little brother Joe, who passed away yesterday at 3pm pacific coast time. His birthday would have been this saturday...

wow...I thought I was saving this to work on later... life doesn't always seem fair, and sometimes I never thought you had a chance for the longest time, you and I had the longest hair and we both stayed back, away from the dance there was always something off with you the smile that didn't seem quite right but you were always sincere in all that you'd do and I lost you though I thought I was holding on tight I remember when you were a little boy and johnny had his gun but he couldn't take us, he couldn't destroy the family, the life that would be ours to come I miss you so much, it ain't the same around here and I wish I could tell you to your face but you know the weight of my words, my heart is sincere and this time, what's done is done, there's no rewind, and no erase your laugh, your smile, the way you showed how much you cared the little things that made you my little brother Joe there was no risk to high, no chance that you hadn't dared I guess I can't believe your gone, I keep waiting for you to show I'll always have the times we laughed and cried together the times you confided your deepest heart to me and I'll call on your strength, as it has always been, when ever When I feel alone, it's the smile on your face I'll be seeking I love you Joe, the one we called Beebo and I will always carry you in my heart you never wanted to be the last, you called me your little bro and we always spent way too much time being apart