Going Blind: It Made Me See You
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Oct 03, 2008 08:14 PM
I opened my eyes, or at least I thought I did. Crap, it had finally happened. I thought I had more time. "It's still dark!" I yell to Jace. I hear his footsteps approach and the mattress squeak as he sits next to me, "Are you serious?" He asks. "No, I like to joke about going blind at 18. Of course I'm serious!" I say with a little more edge than necessary. I can't believe it was only 3 months ago that I lived a "normal" life. I had no idea what Mackeral Degeneration was. And Jace and I were just friends. I was still just plain Jane.
Jan 31, 2009 10:36 AM
Most of my friends were worried about graduation, going to the Senior Prom and what they were going to do to hang onto thier boyfriends as they went away to college and those damned cheerleaders, but I had bigger fish to fry.
It came to me then, things that that would change for me now, I would know if you were frying fish, but would I know the difference between chicken frying and steak? Would they taste better now or just sharpen the flavor somewhat? Would the images I remembered of steak from my memory and tell me what it should taste like or will that change too?
I turned towards Jace, at least I hoped I was turned in his direction and wondered how he was going to handle this.
We had spoken of it of course, you can't have someone like that in your life and not plan for this "eventuality" and then pretend you care about them, so here we are.
I know he has been a rock, solid and so supportive without overdoing it and making me feel helpless, he will allow me to make my own mistakes and only help when it's clear I need it or ask for it.
But I worry since I know how most might handle this, eventually fading away and finding someone to live a normal life with, the plain Jane I once was, though he has never been like most men I have known either.